I wanted to spend the day with Kim so I didn’t send her to school today. We went to Mum’s place to pick up fabric from Maria and spent some time there. Then I brought the little girl to Parkway Parade for lunch and some shopping. In the afternoon while she slept, I decided to take the test.
So I took out the pregnancy test kit which I had bought the day before. Turned out that it was a digital test kit. $30++ it cost! So instead of a minus and plus, it would read pregnant or not pregnant. So weird. Anyway, it turned out POSITIVE! I couldn’t believe my eyes and it took me a while to register that.
I didn’t want to tell P yet. Wanted to wait till 25 Nov (our anniversary) before telling him. What a long wait it would be.
I brought K to Compass Point to meet him for dinner. K ate quite a bit of my rice. She refused to eat what I had apportioned for her initially but when I fed her plain rice, she was happy to eat it. I was happy that she did. I was generally in a happy mood and was smiling widely. Suddenly, P asked me if I was expecting. Like, huh? Where did he get that from?!?! I couldn’t lie so I said yes. He was ecstatic. :0)
Weight 62.7kg
22 Oct 2009
I made a gynae appointment for this morning. I knew it was a little early but I would be working the next three weeks so I wasn’t sure that I would have time to go see the gynae.
I made my way to Thomson Medical to see Dr LN Sim. I didn’t remember her much. She turned out all right. But wasn’t quite as warm as I remembered her to be. Anyway, she said that she couldn't see the foetus from the ultrascan so we did an internal scan. Also couldn’t see anything. But she said that the uterus lining was very thick and my home test was positive so very likely that I was.
I told her that I would be traveling the next month so we scheduled another appt a week before I left just to make sure everything is ok.
We told our parents and Jen tonight. Jen was the most excited one. He was really happy for us and thinks that having a Lim boy would be nice. In my mind, I did think another girl would be nice. But I guess it’s more a case of the known versus the unknown. But I know I would love the baby just as much even if it were a boy.
Can't really see much in the scan above.
23 Oct 2009
I started the day feeling really off. I knew I had to eat but I was feeling so bloated and like there was something stuck in my throat. In the end, I ended up starting my relationship with the throne. Not fun. But since I hadn’t eaten anything, there was nothing to give. But I felt much better after that. For the rest of the day, I couldn’t decide if I was hungry or full. :s
24 October 2009
I’m feeling hungry very often. Oh dear. Not good. Need to watch how much and what I eat.
3 Nov 2009
Today has not been a good day. I was feeling queasy all day. I simply lay around the whole morning feeling unwell. Finally decided to make a trip to Compass Point to have Macs for lunch. That was the only thing I could imagine eating and not feeling nauseous about it. On the way there, P called and said he was on the way home. So we ate at Macs together. But threw up part of it when I got home.
Literally morning sickness was for the whole day today. Also threw up part of dinner. Sigh. But I think when I was pregnant with K, it was very much the same way. If I remember correctly. You tend to forget the bad and remember the good mostly.
9 November 2009
Ok, so morning sickness has been here to stay. Sigh. I truly had forgotten how bad it can make me feel. Told Peen tat we shall stop at two. Unless in my delirious joy from having two perfect kids, I forget once again how bad it can be and decide to have number three.
Anyway, I woke up this morning and found that I was spotting. It never happened with K so I was very worried. Thankfully we were scheduled to see the gynae today. Turned out that baby was ok. Thank God. But need to rest. I was given some hormone pill to help with the pregnancy and it made the nausea much much worse. I was to take 3 pills a day but I could only take 2 a day and even then, it was bad.
The sac is much clearer now on the scan tho' you still can't make out the shape of the tiny one.
Hmm…am worried about the HK trip now. HK trip turned out to be great. Loved the weather. Was mindful to not carry K so much during the trip.
K still talks about HK now, even 6 mths after the trip. She wants to see in an aeroplane again to go to HK. She speaks of HK like it was just a short drive away. It was here that she got to experience various kinds of transportation. She sat in a ferry, double-deck buses and of course, the plane. She still mentions these from time to time and also talk about Disneyland.
25 November 2009
30 December 2009
From the scan above, you can see that baby has developed so much since the last visit to the gynae. God's creation is just so amazing.
25 Jan 2010
P was not able to accompany me on this trip to the gynae and Dr Sim was able to see rather clearly the gender of baby so she indicated it on the scan for P's sake.
23 Feb 2010
I had my detailed scan done. This time at Thomson Medical instead of Mt A. The experience was a lot better. I remember the last time, the person who did the scan didn't want to talk much. Even when I asked her questions about what she was looking at, she merely told me that she would explain later. So that was the end of the conversation. This time round, the nice lady was very chatty and obliging when I asked questions. Baby had his feet facing the scanner at one point and I thought it would make such a cute picture so she actually captured it so that she could print it out for me later. So nice she was.
There. Those are his tiny feet. Hope they aren't sweaty.
24 Mar 2010
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26 May 2010
In the above scan, you can see baby's face pressed up against the placenta. You can see his left eye, nose and mouth.
9 June
As you can tell, in most of the scans you can hardly make out what you are looking at. :s
16 June 2010
Baby is facing us. You can see his facial features. Am I hopeful or do his eyes look rather big?
Anyway, this is gonna be the last scan of baby. We spoke to Dr Sim about status. Her measurements show that baby is about 3-3.1kg this week (week 37). By next week, he'd be 3.3kg, which is Kim's birth weight at 39 weeks 6 days. She isn't hopeful that I would be able to deliver him naturally at that weight if I couldn't deliver Kim naturally back then. She is worried about risks that would be involved if we continued to wait till baby gets bigger. So she suggests c-section next week. As I prefer earlier in the week so that Kim will still be able to go to school and follow her usual schedule somewhat, we opted for the Monday slot.
Anyway, this is gonna be the last scan of baby. We spoke to Dr Sim about status. Her measurements show that baby is about 3-3.1kg this week (week 37). By next week, he'd be 3.3kg, which is Kim's birth weight at 39 weeks 6 days. She isn't hopeful that I would be able to deliver him naturally at that weight if I couldn't deliver Kim naturally back then. She is worried about risks that would be involved if we continued to wait till baby gets bigger. So she suggests c-section next week. As I prefer earlier in the week so that Kim will still be able to go to school and follow her usual schedule somewhat, we opted for the Monday slot.
Total weight gain 13.5kg
Am still hoping and praying that baby will come naturally in the next few days while he is still smallish so I don't need an op and take a long time to recover. All in God's hands.
How do I feel at this point? Physically kinda tired of being sluggish and clumsy, where everything takes such an effort. Mentally still trying to get used to idea that we are going to be parents of 2 little ones. Emotionally a little affected to think that my little girl will no longer have all of mummy's attention. Also worried how K will react to B and how will she take my not being at home for a couple of days. Of course, there is the financial aspect of everything happening at the same time - boarding Dopey, hospitalisation, doc's bills, confinement lady, etc. But I know God will provide. He has and always will. That I know for sure.
I just now need to learn to let go and let God. Let go and let God.
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